Forgive them even if they are not sorry

After much much thought about what to do or how to handle this it is time to just finish it once and for all. I'm saying my peace and you can accept it for what it is or continue to do whatever you may be doing, its not my choice, use your agency. So here goes nothing!
I assumed that over time we would all just move on and try and forgive and forget about what had happened, and be mature enough to just be civil towards one another. But clearly that is not the case, I'm sorry for commenting on that picture, there was no harsh intention by it whatsoever but if that's the way it was perceived then, well fine. Months have passed and we have all changed and moved on, and it's time to either repair what had happened and make amends or to literally just move on completely and sever all ties basically. And after the fiasco last night I am choosing the latter. Being publicly talked about and ridiculed through facebook is not something that I would consider a high road by any means, but that's okay! After being deleted I decided to just delete and block the rest of you just so I wouldn't have to see what you were saying about me. And I'm sorry if that hurt anyone's feelings but it just had to happen for my own sake. Losing a good friend isn't something anyone wants to do but it might just be the only way to receive peace of mind sometimes.
So here are some of the things I have found while thinking about this...

A spirit of forgiveness—an attitude of love toward those who have wronged us—is the very essence of the gospel.

 

I, the Lord, will forgive whom I will forgive, but of you it is required to forgive all men. D&C 64:10

 

“With malice toward none, with charity for all, … let us … bind up the … wounds.” - Abraham Lincoln

“My beloved brothers and sisters, fear not. Be of good cheer. The future is as bright as your faith.”- Thomas S. Monson

 

I'm sorry if you thought I was trying to be mean, but I truly wasn't. I didn't think commenting on that picture would spark all of this. I just don't want to hear any of it anymore. 

Welcome 2012!

2012 is finally here! I am so excited for this year! So much will be happening..
1. I will finally be done with CSN
2. I will most likely head back to Reno
3. My little sister turns 15 (weird)
4. I will start my new major

And according to recent unfortunate circumstances I get to spend this semester with a very dear friend of mine! sooo excited to actually go to institute with someone, and have a church friend again, can't wait for all of our bonding times! haha

The month of January is going to be SO GREAT! I don't start school until the 23rd, so in the meantime I get to clean and organize my room ( i love doing this btw), watch TONS of tv shows (VAMPIRE DIARIES), and spend time with my mom and sister. After my Dad passed away in October my sister and I have gotten much closer, and I'm glad, I've always wanted to be closer to her.
Her birthday is tomorrow and I bought her a quite few presents, plus we are going to a concert together :) So excited for that! 

 Just a side note, I have straightened my hair in 3 months.. EEEEKKKK!

BLAH

When a teacher goes "oh hey, your final is cumulative and the questions are EXACTLY the same as your last 4 tests." So naturally one can only assume to memorize all the answers to the previous 4 tests and call it good. Hello A+ biology final. ehhhhh who are you kidding? that is entirely too easy.
Of course my jerk off of a teacher on the day of the final goes, "oh and by the way I added about 30 random NEW questions, happy testing!"
Really bucko? up yours. thats all i have to say. and let me tell ya 30 new questions is not exactly the same as the previous test, that means its HALF the same you dip.
Clearly I am not too happy about this. If murdering was ya know.. legal, and well not a sin, she would have been dunzo this morning.
kthanksbyeeeee!

dos, deux, dois, 2, TWO

Two more freaking days of school. 

This is the most glorious sentence I have heard in forever. seriously

I don't really think anyone understands my excitement with this.

This has been the worst semester for me and having the end so near is just pure bliss.

Secondary education here I comeeeee!!! 

Stoked. Stoked. Stoked.

Fake friends are no friends.. booom. 

&&& 

Elder Neal A. Maxwell has said, “When in situations of stress we wonder if there is any more in us to give, we can be comforted to know that God, who knows our capacity perfectly, placed us here to succeed.  No one was foreordained to fail or to be wicked. 

When we have been weighed and found wanting, let us remember that we were measured before and we were found equal to our tasks; and, therefore, let us continue, but with a more determined  discipleship.  When we feel overwhelmed, let us recall the assurance that God will not overprogram us; he will not press upon us more than we can bear." (D&C 50:40)

Is it 2012 yet?

Sometimes soooooo much happens in your life all at once that you kind of just give up on everything else.
That's how I feel about this semester.
I have ENTIRELY given up, and I am dying for it to end.
I can't wait to start fresh in 2012 and make the very very best of it.
New major. New outlook. New priorities. New friends.
I am just so excited to get it all started and have no distractions and no drama.
2011 has by far been one of the worst years I have ever experienced, saying bye to 2011 is quite alright with me.
Finals, please don't let me fail you. 
Christmas break, get here already.

Welpppp

I am in Calculus right now and I got to thinking....
I haven't checked blogger in days weeks actually months.
But nothing really has changed on here...
Same old same old.
I am HATING school this semester. My classes are literally killing me.
I changed my major and I am oh so excited! I can not wait to actually enjoy school again and not be slitting my wrists every night when I am suffering through my calculus homework or shoving my face in my textbooks.
SOOOO EXCITED!!!
I need to get out of vegas. there is seriously no body here. one more semester of the 702 and then im moving yonder!
I miss high school, life was so dang easy then.
Everything and everyone is soo so different now, its insane.
Welp calculus is calling my name.

Sophomore year. Fall semester. Week one. Check

I have officially finished one week of school!
Man, it has been pretty hectic!! But everything magically came together in the end.
1. I made it on time to all of my classes! Including my class in bfe at the cheyenne campus and my 8 am and 9 30 classes.
2. I successfully managed to switch from Biology 189 to 196, into the exact class I need 10 minutes before the class started!!!

Most beautiful paper I have ever seen.

3. My biology 196 teacher totally rocks! and gave me our 200 dollar textbook for free! NICEST WOMAN EVER!!!!!!!!

YAYYYYY!!!

 

 

4. I saw my very pretty married best friend, Madison Tran and got to catch up with her for a little while at one of my most favorite locations: Target. I can't wait to be married and discuss grownup things with her one day in the future. hahah probably more distant future! but anyways back to the list.
5. I saw my best friends Karly Francom and Jessica Johnson at school! yay!! love when I see them!!!
6. Celebrated my mom's birthday and also my dad's birthday!
7. Successfully managed to drop my pinterest addiction. Hallelujah!

Hopefully week two goes just as smoothly as week one! Welp here it goes!!!

I am thankful for...

My first financial aid check coming into my bank account. hollaaa!

Getting more financial aid! 

My family, especially my sweet mother

Being able to drive to Reno to see my best friend

Late night phone calls

My camera working AGAIN!! YAY!!!

School starting again, weird but I am kind of excited! 

Criminal Minds marathons, they are the best thing ever

 For already having a friend in my math class! yay!! 

Institute starting again

Knowing who my true friends are

Finally being 19!

Target clearances

FREE cafe rio! 

My mom getting my cheesecake instead of birthday cake! She is the best. 

<3

a little updateeee

So my relationship with blogger was never too devoted to begin with, but lately the relationship has been non existent. I don't really even check the dang thing anymore! sooooo I decided I needed to update.
1. I went to California for about 10 days with my mom and sister. It was soooo nice to not be in vegas. The weather was perfection. I went to Six Flags with my momma, where my camera got wet and temporarily started working. Hence the no pictures.. But it started working about 2 weeks after!!! Which is good news. But anyways, California was AWESOME,  Six Flags was legitskis and I loved visiting my grandma and my aunt.
2. Both my aunt and grandma have DVR, and lets just say I got really attached to recording EVERYTHING and then watching it randomly late in the night. Now I am having withdrawals.
3. I drove up to Reno by myself to visit my bff Bella for a few days! It was way fun living at her cute apartment for a few days doing tons of random things. The drive was not so fun, but thats okay. 
4. "You better eat that."
5. Bella is going to be such a good little housewife. haha
6. I am definitely going to suffer without her here. Vegas without my bff is no bueno.
7. School starts in 4 days... UHHH where the freak did summer go?!?!?!
8. Chicken=116 uhhhhhhh what theeee
9. I have a love hate relationship with financial aid. I found out I am getting more money than I thought which is the LOVE part of course. But right now I am just waiting, waiting, and waiting for it to come in. summer millenium, fall millenium, and fafsa. lets get it together now.
10. My phone has been doing this weird little jumpy thing with the cursor for about 4 weeks now and my new phone was supposed to arrive around 10 days ago,  turns out it hasn't even been shipped yet. Real cool t-mobile. i love waiting for stuff. Not.
11. I decided I need a job. Since just about everyone and their mom left vegas this semester I might as well consume my time with making money. I only have school mondays, tuesdays, wednesdays. so this plan is totally feasible. if someone wants to give me a job that would be much appreciated!!
12. I am FINALLY 19! yay! haha
13. I never realized how funny the movie White Chicks is.. holy effff its hilarious! On my list of movies I need to learn all the funny quotes too.

If you havent yet..

You NEED NEED NEED to try out pinterest
It is the most easily addicting thing in the world, you just aimlessly look at peoples "boards" and you "repin" all the stuff you like to your own boards!
It is super easy and totally fabulous!
It tops stumbleupon, and twitter, and heck even facebook, and blogger too, sorry blogger.

A Conglomeration of Thoughts

SUMMER SCHOOL IS OFFICIALLY OVERRRRR!!! This is the sweetest sentence I have ever heard. Never again will I ever take 9 credits of summer school all in 8 weeks again. It was death. 1 A, 1 B, 1 C... uhh dont even talk to me about the C.. I am livid.

Brotips knows whats up.

"Sometimes u just need to distance yourself from people. If they care, they’ll notice. If they don’t, u know where you stand."
"You can't make the same mistake twice, the second time you make it, it's no longer a mistake, it's a choice."
"Go for someone who is not only proud to have you, but will also take every risk and chance just to be with you."
"3 solutions to every problem: Accept it, Change it, Leave it. If u cant accept it, change it. If u cant change it, leave it." 
So I follow a twitter account called "The Notebook of Love" let me tell you, it knows JUST what to say. It always has the best quotes and it is just sooo true to everything in life. I love it!!! So those were a few of the good ones that were posted within the past about 48 hours, if you are ever in the mood for quotes check out that account!

I leave for California on Sunday with mom for a week!! I am soooo excited to get out of Vegas for a little, and spend time with my mom. And six flags!!! then go up to northern california, to see my aunt and grandma, which is where my sister has been for a week! So it will be WAY fun. I am way excited.
The only downside to all this is tomorrow is the last day for me to be with my best friend Bella, we have practically spent every day together this summer. Saying bye to her will suck most definitely, but luckily I will be able to visit her in Reno and many many skype sessions are in our future.

I've realized a tonnnn of things in the past few weeks.... Never take a friendship for granted, if someone means alot to you then don't let them go. But just because someone used to mean a lot to you doesn't mean it will stay that way forever, people change, let them!

Pretty little liars is absolutely crazy!! You never know what will happen next. My mom hates it because sooo many things happen yet you never fully understand anything. haha I'm pretty sure she is just ready to find out who A is already, but i loveeee waiting and in the mean time a million terrible things happen. ahhhh obsessed.

Turtles lay eggs. My family has owned a turtle for about 14 years now, we thought it was a boy. But turns it out it is most definitely a girl and it laid two eggs!!! I didnt even know this was possible, let alone after 14 years! haha It was the weirdest thing looking into the tank and seeing two white things. Me and my mom were freaking out.

Bella and I need to take gift wrapping classes. Let me tell you, we fail. Sorry Madison!!! haha

My pretty best friend gets married in 14 days!! crazinessss!

Oh and by the way my sleep schedule is officially jacked up. I tend to fall asleep around 2-3 then wake up around 11, there is no way that is healthy. And it can not continue, I am taking an 8 am class in the fall!! So this will need to be fixed!! asap.

Midnight Thoughts

This quote kind of got me thinking, you know, growing up does mean sometimes you grow apart. You can apply this to so many aspects of life. When you grow up you are slowly making that transition to leave your house and be on your own for the first time. You are growing apart from your childish ways and tendencies. You realize who and what really matters in your life. Growing up can in a way be like setting your priorities in order, doesn't necessarily mean it's a bad thing. You just gotta go with it sometimes and let go of the things that are becoming less important or less meaningful, it is a part of life after all. Everyone goes through it at one point and sometimes it all happens at once and everything is just crashing down, but that is totally okay! Just go with it and let go. So that is what I am doing, letting everything happen and run its course, in the end what matters most will still be there in the end.

Giving thanks!

My crazy week of school is over and I felt it was necessary to show my appreciation for a few things in my life. Tonsssss has been happening lately and I need to show my gratitude for how smoothly this week went by. Trust me, it could have ended tragically. So here goes nothing....

I am thankful for my mom, even though she kind of drove me crazy the past 2 weeks she got me through this week. When I needed to just whine and complain she let me, so thankful for her. She is the best mom anyone could ask for.

How cute is she?? haha

I am thankful for my sister, she woke me up just about everyday, and would always fetch my laptop for me and cook me meals. Probably the best little sister anyone could ask for. Yeah shes crazy and has pink hair but what can ya do? haha

I am thankful for my comfy bed, let me tell ya, when you have been in class/studying/homeworking for hours on end that bed is literally all a girl could ask for.

I am thankful for Dr. Pepper. That heavenly drink kept me going for reals. I owe you one.

I am thankful for Bella Sleister. She let me complain to her 24/7. Only she understands how much of a joke my life truly is, and I'm okay with that haha But seriously, seeing her was a breath of fresh air. When you are surrounded by school and stress all you need is some quality girl time, and trust me she doesn't disappoint.

I am thankful for Pizookies. HDASPOPB (Heavenly deliciously amazing pile of pure bliss) I'm sure bjs will trademark that acronym eventually. Anyways back to the point, pizookies are delicious, and I am definitely becoming a regular at Bjs just to have one.

I am thankful for Taco Bell. I definitely ate it almost every day for an entire week. Dollar menu say whaaat?

I am thankful for online math homework. I definitely cheated my way through math and I don't even care. I ended up with an 89.4 and the teacher doesn't round, or give plusses or minuses. cool huh? ya no. but oh well! I got a B, can't complain too much.

I am thankful for Target and their legit clearance items. Yeah I bought a bra for 2 bucks.. jealous? hahah Plus I saved 14 dollars on a dress. Hollaaa!

I am thankful for late night phone calls. They are heaven sent.

Basically my week from hell is over and I am sooo happy I made it out alive. 

HP7P2

Never in my life did I imagine myself being so completely obsessed with Harry Potter. Yeah the books were bloody awesome. But never did I think it would turn into such a HUGE thing as this. But man I am sooooo happy it did. I have watched the movies a million times with my mom. I love them. Every time Sirius dies, I cry. Every time Dumbledore dies, I scream in frustration, and cry. Hedwig dies, I cry. Dobby dies, I bawl my eyes out. I am sooo attached to these characters I have grown up with. The last movie was absolutely blissful, yeah things weren't exactly like the book. All in all I am more than pleased! I can't wait to buy that movie and then watch it 50 gazillion times with my mom.
July 14 was an AMAZING day...
I took a chemistry test.
I took my math final, NO MORE MATH THIS SUMMER. hollaaaaaaa
I went to Bjs with my BFF.
I had my first pizookie. HEAVEN
Sat in the Red Rock theater for 3 hours waiting for the movie, took pictures.
Then the movie of my life started.
Did I cry? DUHHHHH
So in honor of the last movie coming out, I decided to start reading the books again.
soooo excited!

BJS!!!!!

 

 

HP7P2 :)))

Oh quelf

You know our well MY life wayyyy too well! Thanks for last night, you brought soo many laughs, as you always do. It never fails..
I got to play leap frog with my best friend!!! Even though it was tragic and after every leap one of us got hurt.
I slow danced.
My best friend wore a motorcycle helmet on her head for at least 20 minutes.
I named her shnookums. hahah
Foods that taste like chicken..
Chicken utensils.. WAIT WHAT!! oh nevermind kitchen utensils.. GAAHH
"Which of the following statements is false? A.) The closest living relative of the T-Rex is the chicken. B.) The record for the most eggs laid in one day by a chicken is 34 eggs. C.) There are more chickens than people in the world. 
Extra Credit: Name a word that ryhmes with chicken.."
REALLY QUELF?!?!?!?! chickens?!?!?!Just in case you were wondering the correct answer is B. and I ryhmed chicken with freakin. classy I know.

some pressing thoughts..

7 more days of class left for math.
7 more class days left of chem, but they are way more spread out than math, but nonetheless 7 more times! haha
23 days left of online history. I AM LOVING THESE COUNTDOWNS!!!
Cream cheese on cinnabon bread is delish.
i LOVE when its gloomy outside, not rainy. just gloom.
Transformers 3 was freaking legit, i need to watch 1 and 2 now!
Harry potter in 10 days!!!
Lets just say I am not excited for my bff to go back to reno :(
I am fearing for the fate of my mother's van which through the transitive property is the fate of my car status... gaaahh
I am dreading the month of december.
It is really weird how you can be SO close to some people and then grow apart so quickly.
The casey anthony trial was wack.
I desperately need to work on my tan.
Math is so much better with a hot study partner. just saying
I am soooo happy the 4th of july is done with, now my neighbors can calm down with the dang firecrackers.
I really miss softball.
My poor wittle Truffley is sick :(
I need to get my car smogged. boooo.
my mom - her van= me driving her to work at 6:30. not okay.
I have realized: the sister missionaries keep me sane. mainly because they are not boy obsessed.
Having a tire blow out is by far the scariest thing!
I absolutely LOVE when kohls has heels on clearance.
Remind me by brad paisley and carrie underwood is a new fave, as well as knee deep by zac brown band.
Pretty little liars needs to reveal who the eff A is already, it is driving me crazzaaayy
brownchickenbrowncow... enough said.

I am in loveeee!

WITH SUMMER!!!!
Although I am in school taking 9 credits, I still manage to enjoy my summer somehow! This is my midterm week for 2 of my classes and for one of my classes it is two thirds over! So crazy to think that in a month I have learned that much stuff! I just can not wait for one more month to pass right on by and I will have completed 9 credits in 2 months! Sounds dang good to me! I can't wait for the month of August.
1. my birthday month! who doesn't love their birthday month?!
2. NO SCHOOL!!!! It is going to be the only month out of the entire year I won't have school.
3. Family vacation! I am soooo excited for this :)
4. Tan time with my best friend.
5. and plenty more adventures!
I just love the summertime mood, being able to just relax and do what you want just because you can, so sweet. For instance, tonight me and my best friend went to FHE and then afterwards we walked to del taco just because we could! it was seriously so nice!!! until we got stalked at the end hahah
but anyways.. I hadn't blogged in a while, because lets face it, I have a life and dont have the time to just sit around and blog everyday, so I figured I would express my love for summer! And now back to my stack of homework <3

I would sooo much rather...

BE THE MIDDLE MAN!!!!! for situations such as the one I am currently in, it never directly related to me.. I was always just a casual outsider who knew some info about what was happening but I was never one of the people directly involved. I HATE IT! I would so much rather be the outsider or heck even the middle man. The middle man is a pretty crappy job though, it means you are on both sides and you have to relay info back and forth.. but lets get real I would sooo much rather do that then what I am in now. efff. 

 

My Favorite Day EVER!

May 29, 2010 was definitely my favorite day ever. Why you ask? Basically because that was the day my life changed! No I didn't lose a limb or something super crazy. But I finally was baptized a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. My conversion story is probably one of the longest and randomest ones ever, but I wouldn't have it any other way. So here it goes!!
When I was in middle school I had a best friend named Jenni Winn, we really aren't that good of friends now (lets just say junior year of high school was interesting). So anyways, Jenni and I would hangout ALL the time, literally every day. She played piano and while she practiced playing I would read the Book of Mormon on her couch while she played, we watched General Conference together, we went to mutual together, I went to church with her, and I went to girls camp with her also! That year of girls camp was probably what did it the most. I was there with literally all of my friends (Jenni, Shaylee, Karly, Jessica, Holly, Jill, Bella, Megan, Macey, Jen, Jenna, Raquel, and that's all I can think of, if I left someone out I'll feel real bad) Anyways, so we are camping all week and there were soooo many times when the spirit was so strong and we were all in tears, definitely the best year of girls camp I have ever experienced. This was about 3 years ago, I think. I remember President Worthen asked me to say the prayer one morning for scripture study and I was like what the I'm not even a member, and I basically had to convince him that I wasn't but I still said the prayer anyway. There were just soo many amazing experiences that year at girls camp, that was probably the first time that I knew the church was true.
So after camp that year I continued going to church and mutual and reading the book of mormon, then another school year went by, and I went to girls camp again, this time less of my friends were there, but I was with the person who probably impacted my life the most. Megan Thorne, during junior year of high school me and Megan became way close. We hungout all the time, and we had amazing talks during sports medicine (I miss that class). Anyways, me and Megan basically did everything together. She is such an amazing example to me, if it wasn't for her my life would be so completely different. But one day while I was eating dinner at her house the missionaries were eating as well, and during dinner Elder Olsen asked me why I hadn't taken the lessons yet, and basically was like what the I thought you were a member already! So that is when it all began, I started taking the lessons around the end of August in 2009, not sure exactly when (Megan should def check her journal for the exact date). Anyways, so after going through all the lessons I realized that I had already gained a testimony of all of this! And I was basically ready to get baptized right away, but I wasn't able to because I was still 17, and I needed my mom's permission. This was the part that wasn't so easy, it took quite a while for that to happen and I went through quite a few missionaries. I wanted so bad to have Elder Olsen or Elder Redden baptize me, but they both went home before I got permission to get baptized. But thankfully Elder Williams came along, he is definitely my favorite missionary. Sister Ray, my good friend Shaylee's mom, who my family has known for years, went and talked to my mom one night about the church and everything. I was so thankful she did that, I honestly think that is what helped everything. I remember I was at mutual (even though I wasn't supposed to be at the time) and Sister Ray telling me she had talked to my mom, I was so scared to go home that night, I received a priesthood blessing, and went home. After talking well kind of arguing with my mom that night she finally just gave up and told me I could do what I wanted. I was soooo happy!!!! I remember calling Elder Williams and telling him and telling my friends that it was finally happening! Everyone was real happy! The wait was finally over. So we scheduled the baptism for about two weeks after that, and on May 29, 2010 I was baptized.
The funny part about this whole thing is that after my mom told me I could do what I wanted she never really heard much about it afterwards, and then the day of the baptism, literally about an hour and a half before I told her it was happening. whoops! I am so thankful that it finally did happen! I love the gospel! All of my friends and their families have been such amazing examples to me and have helped me get to where I am today. I was so happy that I was able to be there for my friends Bella Sleister and Amanda Bradshaw when they took the lessons and made their decision to get baptized. It is amazing to know how truly great this gospel is and how much it can change a person's life.

Holly, Karly, and Macey

Karly :) I would literally update her daily on what was going on with the whole process, she is amazing!

Macey! I love her, she is amazing! Her family is an amazing example to me, her dad confirmed me :)

Elders Redden, Williams, and Olsen. The trio, my favorites!

Megan's little sister Kaylee, I love her, probably the funniest person I know.

Megan.. My amazing best friend!!!! I absolutely LOVE her.

Madison, Megan, Elder Williams, and Elder Smith

MMK<3

Elder Smith and Elder Williams

MMK, my two amazing best friends!

 Elder Williams

yeppp. That explain us 

 haha oh gosh.. a lovely girls camp pic. sorry meg haha

the BROWN mike and ike meg ate off of the floor of our tent. NAST

 Amanda's Baptism, Bella and Amanda

 MMK<3

Elder Robison, Elder Crossett, Alyssa, Bella, and Amanda at Amanda's baptism

 Bella's baptism

just some studly elders we ran into... 

 Christy, Amanda, Elder Crossett, Bella at Bella's baptism

 Elder Robsion.. We randomly see each other way too often.

Madison and Kaylee 

My beautiful engaged best friend Madison! 

 Elders posing for GQ?

Shaylee, Karly, and Ari 

Elder Alcorn, Ari, and Elder Williams

Megan and Macey.. I LOVE THEM

Elder Wilson! 

Oh geez. Girls camp summer before junior year... hahah 

 Visiting Elder Smith in the hospital.. haha oh geez

 Saying bye to Elder Crossett

And yepp, that's Elder Wilson!

Enough is enough people.

Sometimes people are absolutely CRAZY!
And they don't even realize it, not the slightest clue.
But trust me.. Everyone else notices. Big time.


Anyways. Most randomest/best weekend in forever!
ANDDDDDDDDD
Last but definitely not least, it is officially my ONE year! Whoop whoop!! I will have to blog about that later on, when I am in the mood for typing out full sentences and complete thoughts with detail :)